I’ve recently broken away from a negative friendship at school. It’s complicated, but basically we fell out and hurt each other’s feelings all the time, as our personalities really didn’t go well together. I’m glad I had the strength to leave a friendship which was hurting both of us, but she was my only friend in school.
I dread going to school now because I hate being alone and yet the thought of having to make new friends scares me. I have really bad social anxiety problems. I’m okay with talking to one or two people, but even the thought of approaching a group of strangers terrifies me to the point where I feel physically sick. I try to build up the courage to ask a group if I can sit with them at lunch or something, but every time I just freeze up and I can’t do it. I’m not exactly sure why I’m like this; I just feel that everyone dislikes me and even if they let me sit with them I’ll actually be annoying them and they won’t want me to be there. Because I’m really shy my quiet demeanour often comes across as unfriendly and uninterested, which tends to push any potential friends away.
I know it probably sounds really silly and lame, and I’m trying to overcome it, but it’s slow progress. Do any of you guys have any ‘tips’ or things I could do which could help me become more approachable and less afraid? I’d really appreciate it. 🙂